Favourite Hideout: January 2007

SYLVIA KOK. wonder if you have watch smtown's snow dream. anyway, i've upload it here. got quite alot of parts got TVXQ! XD

and here is the BoA key of heart, olympus CF. featuring donghae from SUPER JUNIOR. =))

it's a really sweet and touching CF. sigh. i cry everytime i watch it. ><

and this is the goodbye days by yui i've been talking about.

it's from the movie midnight sun. it's about a girl who had a illness where sunlight can kill her. and there is really such a illness in the world. it's so upsetting. imagine to live the world in the dark. sigh. anyways, that's why in the mv, she suddenly runs away and into the house when she realised the sun was about to come out. sigh. i want to watch the movie again mann.

supposed to go out with my sister to get somethings, but she had things on in the morning and movie session at 18.30, so i told her that i am not going already.
she was upset cause if today might be the last available day we both can make it together.
sigh. guess i'll have to go shopping by myself. RARRS! i HATE to go shopping. that is unless it is for caps. the kind ... what do you call it? -hums. sockcap? hahas. i dont know man.

i am unable to finish my 22 page dnt thingy. i only got 4 page. only one page is full.
the other three is with pictures. but i cant find enough. and i dont know if i can use the printer or not. RARRS! and tomorrow, we are going to have the once delayed test on structures and its calculations. i dont understand that topic, okay? my TOA CAH SOH is horrible. sigh. im bound to fail.

i have not finish the chinese olvl book. going to hand in for checking to the teacher tomorrow. guess i am going to get it from the teacher again. and yes, i have not done the 4 compo. hopefully i can hand in all by the end of this week. =))

-choir. i am not going to give up. i want to go for choir syf. i promise you that i will sort out the stuffs and not cry in choir anymore. -i am trying my best.
-drama. i'll be back on this friday. i think everybody have forgotten me. sigh. i wonder what's this year's script about..
-vistarian idol. laas. i think i better just sing something i am familiar with like a whole new world or reflection and concentrate on it. that is because, i cant memories the beauty and the beast lyrics. i cant, mann. ohh, and someone told me 'candle on the water' is a disney classic song. i didnt know that. ><

i am lonely. sigh. -conference with me on msn somebody.

okays. now that i am done with what that's on my mind.
i can carry out my normal blogging.
i am listening to a shuffle of lovely day and tic! toc! by super junior and goodbye days by yui.

lovely day is a very sweet song. especially when many parts of the song is sang by ryeowook.
yes, so what is i love the way ryeowook sings? tell me, who doesnt?
the way he sings is so sweet and so easy to track which part he is singing. so tell me how can not notice the sweetness of the song? by the way, he is goodlooking. XD ,so unrelated.

tic! toc! is super juniors' new song. you can watch it on one of my older post.
see the cheeky little monkeys playing and dancing around. XD

as for goodbye days. you can also watch it on youtube.
maybe i'll upload it to my blog later.
it's a pretty nice song. i am lying. =))

whatever happens, i am still going for choir.
and i will work hard for syf.
even if i cry a millionth time, i'll never give up.
well, that is if he decided to not sing jang-er and make us learn two new songs.
yes. so what if i wanted to quit on wednesday?
as long as he still wants us to sing that few songs that we have been practising.
i dont mind staying on. i dont.
and so what if i cry on both practises -wednesday and saturday.
so what? it's just the way i communicate.
and yes. i were sick yesterday. i am not lying. so you better believe me.
i nearly fainted on my way to school.
but so what? i manage to pull through.
though i remained unconscious after i reached home until today morning.
so what? i still live to everyday and go through everything.
it doesnt mean i am sick. therefore i dont go to school.
if that's the case, i wont be in school yesterday, today. and perhaps tomorrow?
i want to go for body check up. but i dont have the time. really.
i have not even start on my coursework for dnt.
i am supposed to hand in a 22page coursework on monday.
and that is the first few portion of the coursework only. rarrs.
whatever it is. i am trying to appreciate as many things as i can now.
just before i say goodbye to the world. =))))

and i've made a new friend. i dont know if she good or not actually. she just follows me around.
she holds my hand when i am just a few steps from my house. sweet.
she knows i cant do it when im in school. =))
she is a sweet little girl though she never shows her face to me.
and she told me to prepare for the worst. as though she knew what was going to happen.
and yes. she knows. i dont know why man.
and she made me appreciate things more. she told me not to regret when i leave the world.
she said the time is about to come. so i said, yes. i promise you that i'll learn to appreciate all the things i have now. and forget the hatred. forgive the unforgiven. learn to love people more.

and yes. when i leave the world with her, i want to give all my things to my sister.
hahas. getting secondhand things from me again. i hope you dont mind. =)

as for the little girl. i like you. stay by my side. be my friend. one that i can confide in till we are gone together.

is she my imaginary friend? or something i am beginning to see again? i dont know.
but i trust her. she dont lie. at least i dont thing so. and she doesnt tell things about me to others. -somehow, she seem to be only able to communicate with me. dont ask me why. cause i dont know. =)

anyways, heal the world. make it a better place.

thank you my friends.
thank you my family.
thank you little girl.
thank you ...

things have not been going well. i dont know man.
why did i become such a weakling? hmms.
maybe i try too hard. maybe.

been taking away somethings which i depend upon alot to concentrate on other stuffs.
yes, i've change my prorities. maybe i should not have.
things like using handphone 24hrs, smsing, loitering after school, gaming, jamming and all.
yes, i took them away. maybe i should not, at all.

i used the new-found time on things i think should be more important like studies, cca, family.
yes, amazingly, i did most of my homework and i communicate more with my sister due to stuffs on super junior. =)
maybe if i remained as i used to, rather than to place more pressure on myself, i would have been better. maybe, just maybe.

i used to preferred my ccas more than my studies. at least i do better there.
and now, i've placed studies on par with my ccas.
maybe i should not have. maybe.

and yes, i dont touch my handphone unless i think there is a need to.
i never knew i could do that at all, seriously.
my bills been overshot due to my 2k+, 3k smses.
so i've decided to not touch my phone for one day. and it was alright.
so there goes one week. and one month.. and so on.
maybe handphone is not as important as i thought. yeah. thats it.

okays. with my current situation, it reminds me of a scene from midnight sun.
did i tell you guys about it? that movie was amazing.
and i love yui's goodbye days. =)))

it's like after so much doing, you realised that it doesnt help at all.
in the end, she still died in the movie.
what's wrong man?
i tried to improved myself and yes, my studies became better.
but what happened to me? i've become so weak.
if i could, i would have slapped myself.

and i want to clarify something.
crying is my way of expressing myself.
when im sad, i cry.
when im angry, i cry.
when im happy, i cry, in a good way i guess.
so dont worry.
cause if i dont cry, that's the time you take the cue.
- it probably means there's something wrong with me.

if im angry and i dont cry. you better make me cry. sounds weird?
probably. people must be thinking im crazy.
if im too angry, to be rated, i wont cry at all.
and at that time, i can see myself killing that person.
seriously. as though it's a movie being played in front of you suddenly.
and it's not the easy push you down the building kind of thing.
but though sadistic way, where you slice them piece by piece.
hear them scream, hear them howl. i like it. i dont know why. but yes, i like it alot.

and yes. with the above evidences, i conclude that this is why you should make me cry. make me feel bad.
cause if you dont, you may never know what's on my mind.
yes. you will never know. never. =)

but anyway, i've changed.
stopped the thoughts. i think.
cause there have not been anyone else who have made me that angry than that very same person.
but he has changed. he gave me more freedom. and hopefully, trusted me more.

and yes. one way that could make me that angry is to frame me. and not believe in what i say. especially when it is the truth and it have been going on for years.

okays. i should stop this.
maybe when i think of something else then i'll come again.

sweetlovebuggies.

yays! somehow, today's SUKIRA's not lagging at all.

and i can blogg and watch it at the same time.

had lessons as per normal, just that the first few periods of the day was in air conditioned room.

man, it was freezing cold to most of us as the weather has been really bad this few days.

we reckon that it's global warming. sigh. i dont want the world to die. seriously...

gary kind of threw temper in class today? hums. shall not elaborate. i dont want to die yet.

yes, i am afraid of him. ><>

spent the whole literature lesson doing the spin the pen thingy. and i am proud to say that i've master the backward version, the one waiihoong does. and unfortunately, i've forgotten how to do the forward version, the one taihong does. XD

assembly was lame and kind of a waste of time. some police came to talk to us about some stuffs. and there was one on littering and it's fines and on vandalism and it's fines.

after the lesson, i went back to class and started drawing on people's stuffs. yeah, they know who they are. and then i remember the vandalism fines; $1000. and i were like.. oh no, too late. hahas. =) and there was one on the littering which jean and i kind of act out, though we had no intention to. but it was not littering. similar, but not. =)

had to thanks a few people; KAILING, YUNHUI AND DONAVAN. that is for helping us to buy mac for lunch. if not we would have died of starvation. XD and they came back drenched. yes, it was raining again.

choir was quite alright. though we sang horribly. ><

after choir, we had a short meeting on some stuffs. i stayed back to 'play'. helped with the punishment of playing with the soccer ball in the music room; daniel and wee chea. donavan made them do push ups and kept making them redo as they put their knees down after a while. yes, im the heroine of the day! hahas. ask donavan to cut down on the numbers. yays! =))

after that, donavan and i duet for a whole new world song. and he also told me that kevin is learning to sing that song. told kevin about it. then we chatted for quite sometime. sent him another song which he wants to try singing. it turned out that i were trying to learn that song too. but i kind of changed my mind, and gave the song to him.

and yes, i've been typing this for one hour. since the start of SUKIRA. it's like 22:00 now. guess i better finish this, so i can watch the rest of SUKIRA in peace.

into it.

man, i dont know how to do the chemistry worksheets. yes, both of it! RARRS!

school has been quite tough. lessons were like from early morning to late evening.
mrs e said that most likely the school will do something about it.
when approved, we will be the one of the first to to know. -yays!

i have to thank some WONDERFUL FRIENDS for providing me stuffs.
-may it be that i forgot to bring it or it is out-of-stock.
they are..

jerome and jason -A4 size blue book that saved my life!,

munting -everything! she is a 'bookshop'! X),

clement -A5 size book. yays!,

christina -10 dividers. =))),

huichin -textbook. i cannot name it. later both of us get into trouble.,

evelyn -emaths textbook. it's out-of-stock.

yesterday, donavan and i did not turn up for drama. i am sorry.

we had some choir stuffs to do. ><

the secondary ones are very sweet. well, even though only 9 turned up.

it was fun. yeah, i mean it! =))

some stuffs/people that were memoriable:

time when we played the name games. -the wrong tempo-ers.

lee jun jie; jj XD -crystal asked if he could sing some jj lin's songs. sad. he dont know any.

one very cute boy who is his class cleanliness leader. -lol. i dont know his name. x)

the two JEREMY; j1, j2. -yays!

the wet boy; wetwet. -i dont know his name. he went home before coming and walked in the rain. x)
=))

after the orientation thingy, we stayed back and play! =))

jeremy lim stayed on with us cause he got no where to go. ><

some stuffs i know about him.

- he is from 1e5.

- ms z is his form teacher. -gosh!

- he is from choir. -yays! that's why you should continue with it!

- he plays the piano. -he dont look like one. XD more like a basketballer.

- he likes to play the piano. -yeah! duh~

- he looks like milfred. - yeah! ask the rest who were there. alot of people agree! =))))

- he wants to join cross-country. -no.. i'll pull him back into choir! XD

then we begin to sing some disney classic songs. -the theme for VI's audition.

samuel came, so we played dai dee together. =)))

hums. i always ask questions cause im not good with the 5s.

and somehow, i always get the diamond 3. -.-

sam, don and i went rivervale plaza's kfc to eat lunch.

i didnt buy any. just plainly stole don's fries. =))))

after that, it was still raining heavily, so we played dai dee again. -and i got the diamond 3 again! -.-

and there was a mirror behind us, so our cards are all seen, lahs.

don and i saw a guy that looks like elvin in the kfc. -but he's not.

and we kept looking at him. X)

hums. they went around rp to find some ingredients for cookies. -think they are going crystal's house to bake cookie. ><

i went home after that. -yes, in the rain again.

SUKIRA have been okay this few days.

sungmin came on tuesday and my sis was thrilled. ><

sigh. i think i want teukie and dardar too much. -i dreamt of them the last few days.

lovely wonders.

BORA is lagging today. especially when it's playing SUKIRA.
it was alright before SUKIRA.
once SUKIRA started, the video window closed. -.-
then could not watch it for quite sometime. -one hour? ><

question of the day/ week/ month: sigh. TEUKie, did you went a nose job?
i dont mind, cause you are very beautiful and remain attractive to me no matter what the answer may be. x) -my prettyboy!
hums. okays, i shall not lie. i do mind alittle. but just that tiny little bit. -i need time to digest it! mm.

prettyboy, prettyboy. i am addicted to your beautiful face and wonderful voice. -wonderful voice not to be compared with ye-wookie couple. x)

i like YE-WOOKie couple just as much as mr pretty boy. not to forget EUN-HAE couple too!
and bodyguard/ gentlemen SIWON, violent/ man-yet-sweet-looking KANGIN -XD, pinkish- baby SUNGMIN, HANKYUNG and KYUHYUN, snow white KIBUM, flowerboy/ cinderella HEECHUL, wonderful hot dancer SHINDONG.
man! did i just list everybody down? XD

anyway, today i am just concentrating on EETEUK more. -due to the question ><
day by day, i'll write on different people of the group. may write YESUNG & RYEOWOOK, EUNHYUK & DONGHAE and HANKYUNG & KYUHYUN's together. XD
writing the yewook couple and the eunhae couple's together is understandable, right?
as for kyuhyun and hankyung, i dont quite know why but i like to link them together. maybe it's because of their similarity in the spelling of their name. XD -i know i am lame.

okays! enough of all this.

studies are getting tougher. ><
no, i've just realised that there is PE tomorrow. -.-
rarrs! i hate it man. i too tired to exercise tomorrow. yes, i can predict it. XD

choir budds! jiayou! we must not give up! reach out for GOLD, babes! XD

im going off from here.
cya! loves.

SUPER JUNIOR VIDEOs.

TIC! TOC! - song of the day/ week/ month [ i dont know which one to choose, man. ]

SUPER JUNIOR - TIC! TOC! on kiss the radio.
this is when the song was playing on SUKIRA. =))
danced by; eunhyuk and eeteuk. X)

SUPER JUNIOR - U [remix] and TIC! TOC! on SBS Gayo Daejun.
the first time i heard U's remix version. X)
danced by; everybody except heechul and kibum. sweet.

SUPER JUNIOR - TIC! TOC! on golden disk.
eeteuk's sexy hairstyle! X)
danced by; alot of people. there were dancers at the back too, right? yays!

watch the different versions. each contain a different.. style? X)

comments on my first week of schooling.

TEACHERS
form/ social studies/ fitness, mrs e; nice and reasonable. somewhat alike mrs b. =))co-form/ english, mdm w; treat us like primary/ nursery babies. X/
elementary mathematics, mrs l; patient teacher. i like her. =))
chemistry, mr r; yays! it's you again! =)
physics, mr l; LOL! bet lessons are going to be more interesting this year! X))
design and technology, mdm l; okay, but i want mr t [ retired - my source of motivation's gone! ]. =)
chinese, ms s; nice, but i want mdm tay. =)
history, mrs a; alright. i know she is a good teacher. =)
literature, mrs s; man, it's her again! X/
physical education, mr i; it's you again, huh! X)
guess the rating by the smiley faces!

i've decided to drop my additional mathematics as i think my elementary mathematics teacher is good. if i just concentrate on my emaths, i may have a not-bad score for it. =))

i had blisters on the first day of school. man, it hurts, okay!
holiday homework not done. gosh. chinese have 4 essay to be done. she is going to deduct marks. - marks deducted depends on her mood!
dnt test on tuesday! =/

went to disturb the secondary one orientation campfire 2007 yesterday night. went there with the other OGLs. we wanted to call ourselves ex- SLs. as SL are called XL and ex- SL are called XXL. X))

i am SUKIRA-ing now. eeteuk and eunhyuk! later then! ♡